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dodger_sister) wrote2013-07-19 03:28 pm
dodger_sister) wrote2013-07-19 03:28 pm
Like One Of The Seven Dwarfs.
Everything has been making me grumpy all week. Mainly the problem is the heat - it's been in the low hundreds since Sunday. The air pressure keeps making me dizzy and my sister even had a little bout of heat-sickness while running errands. Also, I think in some part I am extra edgy because Cory Monteith's death really brought up a bunch of crap I didn't want to think about. And then the whole world is just being stupid. If I go to Tumblr because I need kittens and Dean/Cas to cheer me up, please stop dropping social issues in my face. Yes, I think people can be more educated about things and yes, that story about the pedophile getting custody of his kid is upsetting - but I was ALREADY UPSET, so please just let me look at Dean/Cas arts and stop harshing my buzz.
This is by way of saying if you don't want your buzz to be harshed by my rant, don’t click the cut…
*Saying that a person who craves attention is like a drug addict except that they will always crave the attention, whereas once a drug addict is off the drugs, they will never crave the drugs again. Um...NO. WRONG. Yes, you are not chemically dependent on it anymore, but NO, YOU WILL NEVER STOP FULLY CRAVING IT. It may get less or better, but it will NEVER go away. I thought most people, even people without this personal experience, understood that these days.
*Going to the Tumblr tag ‘addiction’ is not the same as going to recovery forums and is, overall, a bad idea. There were some posts that were what I needed, were helpful or thoughtful. But in the middle of those were various people saying things like, ‘I think I have a serious addiction and this might kill me. I'm addicted to Tumblr!!!!! lol.’ Don't tag that shit 'addiction'! Internet addiction is actually a problem, but this was just some dumbass making a joke about it. Pissed my shit off.
*My current physical therapist - who I adore - telling a story about how they often leave soaps on the TV and one day a patient was like, "Uh, can we change the channel?" and she looked up and saw two dudes kissing and was like, "Ewwwwwww, yes, let's change the channel." Woman, you are 34 years old - that is an uncalled for reaction! "When did soaps start doing that?" Oh, Idk, ten years ago! I admit to cutting a lot of slack to people in the generations above mine when they have a kneejerk reaction like that - especially when I know them to not be bigoted in any way - it’s just that in the ratio of their lifetime, this is not something they are used to seeing. But I expect better from my own generation! Now I'm side-eyeing her real hard. (I also spent a lot of time after that telling her about a romance I was reading and emphasizing how the two love interests were both guys! Ha!)
*My cousin’s 13 year old son saying about his step-sister that he has never known a kid who likes to clean as much as she does and how 'she is going to make some man a real good wife'. And I was like, "What if she doesn't want to be a wife? Or what if she wants to divide the household chores up with her spouse?" and he told me that a woman's job is to do all the cleaning. And then someone said something about a male nurse, and he said, "Hold the phone! Dudes are nurses? No, only women are nurses. That's a woman's job," and I was like, "Hey, the best nurse I ever had was a man." And my sister was all, "You know what? That's bullshit. We got to knock that right out of you, boy. No one in our family thinks like that," and I said, "It's the year 2013, you better rewire that brain of yours to this century." Man, the heavy influence I had on the first eight years of this child's life have been completely washed away by his mother apparently remarrying a misogynistic asshat.
The BFF can attest that was only a small portion of the things I ranted about on the phone on Wednesday, so to cheer myself up, I went and watched stories on youtube about foster kids being adopted. And that’s when I found this. Do you think if you just met a random person that you would ever walk away from the encounter and think, “I think that is my brother." Because that’s what happened here.
Check it out!
It’ll make you feel better!
This is by way of saying if you don't want your buzz to be harshed by my rant, don’t click the cut…
*Saying that a person who craves attention is like a drug addict except that they will always crave the attention, whereas once a drug addict is off the drugs, they will never crave the drugs again. Um...NO. WRONG. Yes, you are not chemically dependent on it anymore, but NO, YOU WILL NEVER STOP FULLY CRAVING IT. It may get less or better, but it will NEVER go away. I thought most people, even people without this personal experience, understood that these days.
*Going to the Tumblr tag ‘addiction’ is not the same as going to recovery forums and is, overall, a bad idea. There were some posts that were what I needed, were helpful or thoughtful. But in the middle of those were various people saying things like, ‘I think I have a serious addiction and this might kill me. I'm addicted to Tumblr!!!!! lol.’ Don't tag that shit 'addiction'! Internet addiction is actually a problem, but this was just some dumbass making a joke about it. Pissed my shit off.
*My current physical therapist - who I adore - telling a story about how they often leave soaps on the TV and one day a patient was like, "Uh, can we change the channel?" and she looked up and saw two dudes kissing and was like, "Ewwwwwww, yes, let's change the channel." Woman, you are 34 years old - that is an uncalled for reaction! "When did soaps start doing that?" Oh, Idk, ten years ago! I admit to cutting a lot of slack to people in the generations above mine when they have a kneejerk reaction like that - especially when I know them to not be bigoted in any way - it’s just that in the ratio of their lifetime, this is not something they are used to seeing. But I expect better from my own generation! Now I'm side-eyeing her real hard. (I also spent a lot of time after that telling her about a romance I was reading and emphasizing how the two love interests were both guys! Ha!)
*My cousin’s 13 year old son saying about his step-sister that he has never known a kid who likes to clean as much as she does and how 'she is going to make some man a real good wife'. And I was like, "What if she doesn't want to be a wife? Or what if she wants to divide the household chores up with her spouse?" and he told me that a woman's job is to do all the cleaning. And then someone said something about a male nurse, and he said, "Hold the phone! Dudes are nurses? No, only women are nurses. That's a woman's job," and I was like, "Hey, the best nurse I ever had was a man." And my sister was all, "You know what? That's bullshit. We got to knock that right out of you, boy. No one in our family thinks like that," and I said, "It's the year 2013, you better rewire that brain of yours to this century." Man, the heavy influence I had on the first eight years of this child's life have been completely washed away by his mother apparently remarrying a misogynistic asshat.
The BFF can attest that was only a small portion of the things I ranted about on the phone on Wednesday, so to cheer myself up, I went and watched stories on youtube about foster kids being adopted. And that’s when I found this. Do you think if you just met a random person that you would ever walk away from the encounter and think, “I think that is my brother." Because that’s what happened here.
It’ll make you feel better!
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Cory's death was upsetting, is upsetting and I can see wanting an escape. My tumblr is ljhamlin91 by theway. I don't reblog a lot but it's generally light hearted stuff.
I need to get my tumblr to work on my computer as well as phone so I can find you a link to the cutest thing ever. Some one has made a cartoon that includes dean, cas and sam done on the style of the powerpuff girls
I hope you feel better <3
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I'll take hugs, thank you.
The heat isn't as bad here, but I don't deal with it well so I know how you feel, it is grumpy making.
Anybody with health issues, yeah, the heat is an extra pain in the ass to go along with everything else. It was in the 90s all week with an extra 10 degree bump of humidity for a whopping 105F on Thursday. But it rained on Friday night! So now we are just in the high 80s with little to no humidity. Yeah, it's reached the time of summer where I complain about the heat, but in five months, it'll be winter and I will be freezing my ass off with 20F chills outside.
Cory's death was upsetting, is upsetting and I can see wanting an escape.
It just hit way too close to home. His story was always inspiring to me in my own struggle with drugs and even when he went back into rehab, I was uplifted like, "Look, yes, he relapsed, but he keeps trying to be better. So even if I relapse at some point, it doesn't have to be the end." But then, of course, for him it was the end - so that just stirred up a lot of feelings for me.
My tumblr is ljhamlin91 by theway. I don't reblog a lot but it's generally light hearted stuff.
Oh, that's cool! I'll check it out. I don't have a tumblr myself but I have found a few I like to check regularly (it started with The BFF's and branched out) but I could use one with light-hearted stuff to end my tumblr-browsing time with for sure!
Some one has made a cartoon that includes dean, cas and sam done on the style of the powerpuff girls
OH YES, I want that! If you find it, let me know!
I hope you feel better <3
Thank you - it was a long weekend and my anxiety is not completely under control, but the better weather and a good day yesterday certainly helped! Hope you are doing good too, babe!
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Cory's relapse ended in tragedy,but I think your right that he's an inspiration, because he kept fighting to get better, even though he was in a temptation filled world.
I found the link for you http://bellagattino.tumblr.com/
More hugs, anxiety is one of the worst things.
I'm not doing too bad
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That's actually a good way to look at it! It's all just a big scary question mark in my life and I try to remember that a question mark means I have no way of knowing how it will end - just as easily positive as anything else.
That SPN Powerpuff art!!! ahahahahah That's AWESOME!!!
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The SPN thing was just so awesome. I Aww'd right away