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dodger_sister) wrote2013-07-19 03:28 pm
dodger_sister) wrote2013-07-19 03:28 pm
Like One Of The Seven Dwarfs.
Everything has been making me grumpy all week. Mainly the problem is the heat - it's been in the low hundreds since Sunday. The air pressure keeps making me dizzy and my sister even had a little bout of heat-sickness while running errands. Also, I think in some part I am extra edgy because Cory Monteith's death really brought up a bunch of crap I didn't want to think about. And then the whole world is just being stupid. If I go to Tumblr because I need kittens and Dean/Cas to cheer me up, please stop dropping social issues in my face. Yes, I think people can be more educated about things and yes, that story about the pedophile getting custody of his kid is upsetting - but I was ALREADY UPSET, so please just let me look at Dean/Cas arts and stop harshing my buzz.
This is by way of saying if you don't want your buzz to be harshed by my rant, don’t click the cut…
*Saying that a person who craves attention is like a drug addict except that they will always crave the attention, whereas once a drug addict is off the drugs, they will never crave the drugs again. Um...NO. WRONG. Yes, you are not chemically dependent on it anymore, but NO, YOU WILL NEVER STOP FULLY CRAVING IT. It may get less or better, but it will NEVER go away. I thought most people, even people without this personal experience, understood that these days.
*Going to the Tumblr tag ‘addiction’ is not the same as going to recovery forums and is, overall, a bad idea. There were some posts that were what I needed, were helpful or thoughtful. But in the middle of those were various people saying things like, ‘I think I have a serious addiction and this might kill me. I'm addicted to Tumblr!!!!! lol.’ Don't tag that shit 'addiction'! Internet addiction is actually a problem, but this was just some dumbass making a joke about it. Pissed my shit off.
*My current physical therapist - who I adore - telling a story about how they often leave soaps on the TV and one day a patient was like, "Uh, can we change the channel?" and she looked up and saw two dudes kissing and was like, "Ewwwwwww, yes, let's change the channel." Woman, you are 34 years old - that is an uncalled for reaction! "When did soaps start doing that?" Oh, Idk, ten years ago! I admit to cutting a lot of slack to people in the generations above mine when they have a kneejerk reaction like that - especially when I know them to not be bigoted in any way - it’s just that in the ratio of their lifetime, this is not something they are used to seeing. But I expect better from my own generation! Now I'm side-eyeing her real hard. (I also spent a lot of time after that telling her about a romance I was reading and emphasizing how the two love interests were both guys! Ha!)
*My cousin’s 13 year old son saying about his step-sister that he has never known a kid who likes to clean as much as she does and how 'she is going to make some man a real good wife'. And I was like, "What if she doesn't want to be a wife? Or what if she wants to divide the household chores up with her spouse?" and he told me that a woman's job is to do all the cleaning. And then someone said something about a male nurse, and he said, "Hold the phone! Dudes are nurses? No, only women are nurses. That's a woman's job," and I was like, "Hey, the best nurse I ever had was a man." And my sister was all, "You know what? That's bullshit. We got to knock that right out of you, boy. No one in our family thinks like that," and I said, "It's the year 2013, you better rewire that brain of yours to this century." Man, the heavy influence I had on the first eight years of this child's life have been completely washed away by his mother apparently remarrying a misogynistic asshat.
The BFF can attest that was only a small portion of the things I ranted about on the phone on Wednesday, so to cheer myself up, I went and watched stories on youtube about foster kids being adopted. And that’s when I found this. Do you think if you just met a random person that you would ever walk away from the encounter and think, “I think that is my brother." Because that’s what happened here.
Check it out!
It’ll make you feel better!
This is by way of saying if you don't want your buzz to be harshed by my rant, don’t click the cut…
*Saying that a person who craves attention is like a drug addict except that they will always crave the attention, whereas once a drug addict is off the drugs, they will never crave the drugs again. Um...NO. WRONG. Yes, you are not chemically dependent on it anymore, but NO, YOU WILL NEVER STOP FULLY CRAVING IT. It may get less or better, but it will NEVER go away. I thought most people, even people without this personal experience, understood that these days.
*Going to the Tumblr tag ‘addiction’ is not the same as going to recovery forums and is, overall, a bad idea. There were some posts that were what I needed, were helpful or thoughtful. But in the middle of those were various people saying things like, ‘I think I have a serious addiction and this might kill me. I'm addicted to Tumblr!!!!! lol.’ Don't tag that shit 'addiction'! Internet addiction is actually a problem, but this was just some dumbass making a joke about it. Pissed my shit off.
*My current physical therapist - who I adore - telling a story about how they often leave soaps on the TV and one day a patient was like, "Uh, can we change the channel?" and she looked up and saw two dudes kissing and was like, "Ewwwwwww, yes, let's change the channel." Woman, you are 34 years old - that is an uncalled for reaction! "When did soaps start doing that?" Oh, Idk, ten years ago! I admit to cutting a lot of slack to people in the generations above mine when they have a kneejerk reaction like that - especially when I know them to not be bigoted in any way - it’s just that in the ratio of their lifetime, this is not something they are used to seeing. But I expect better from my own generation! Now I'm side-eyeing her real hard. (I also spent a lot of time after that telling her about a romance I was reading and emphasizing how the two love interests were both guys! Ha!)
*My cousin’s 13 year old son saying about his step-sister that he has never known a kid who likes to clean as much as she does and how 'she is going to make some man a real good wife'. And I was like, "What if she doesn't want to be a wife? Or what if she wants to divide the household chores up with her spouse?" and he told me that a woman's job is to do all the cleaning. And then someone said something about a male nurse, and he said, "Hold the phone! Dudes are nurses? No, only women are nurses. That's a woman's job," and I was like, "Hey, the best nurse I ever had was a man." And my sister was all, "You know what? That's bullshit. We got to knock that right out of you, boy. No one in our family thinks like that," and I said, "It's the year 2013, you better rewire that brain of yours to this century." Man, the heavy influence I had on the first eight years of this child's life have been completely washed away by his mother apparently remarrying a misogynistic asshat.
The BFF can attest that was only a small portion of the things I ranted about on the phone on Wednesday, so to cheer myself up, I went and watched stories on youtube about foster kids being adopted. And that’s when I found this. Do you think if you just met a random person that you would ever walk away from the encounter and think, “I think that is my brother." Because that’s what happened here.
It’ll make you feel better!
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I am sure you can imagine why Cory's death - someone who was trying so hard to stay clean and do better - would knock me down like that. His story was inspiring to me and to have it end like that, has me rattled. Not to mention, god, he was so young and so many people are mourning this.
smack that nephew HARD
I want to smack his mother for marrying the asshat who is teaching him this shit! Sometimes I question my own sanity for having been best friends with her for so many years (back when) - I thought she was better than marrying a gun-toting misogynistic patriarchal idiot.
so sorry you are having a hard week, ILU!
ILU2!!! Thank you, babe. It is slowly getting better.
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And I've been siting here for like, half an hour trying to come up with a graceful way to say this, and it's just not coming: don't go thinking that his end is anything like related to your life or destiny or whatever, because it's NOT. Okay, please?
Related but less intense: I hope the whole cast is all right, too. It has to have been just like losing a family member for all of them.
Hopefully the boy will meet girls of his own age who smack him around for being a proto-dickhead, and peer pressure will do something positive in making him a better human being. We can hope, right?
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Just FYI, when I originally read this comment, I actually cried. Just because...that you sat there and took the time to think of words to try to help - you don't know how very little that happens when it comes to my drug use. Nobody ever knows what to say, but sometimes just someone trying is all I really need, not shying away from it. Shit, see, now I'm gonna cry again! And your right, I know your right, because here I am 3 1/2 years out and still standing - but it does just hit on a lot of my fears and I try to remember like 'the worst doesn't always happen' - because honestly when I was a kid, nobody thought I'd live to be 35 and here I am, so even if my stupid brain sometimes tells me I won't make it...well, it can go fuck itself, I'm in charge of my own life.
Related but less intense: I hope the whole cast is all right, too. It has to have been just like losing a family member for all of them.
I thought of that too. I know it's a bigger cast than SPN, but it seems very 'family-like' among the cast like SPN, and I tried to imagine what it would be like if Jensen or Jared or Misha died and it was a bad thought. Shit, I fucking bawled my eyes out when Kim Manners died in what was it, S2? (though to be fair, I had been following Kim's career since 21 Jump Street & The X-Files days). Tumblr informs me that the Glee fandom is being wanktastic towards the cast over Twitter for 'not grieving the appropriate way' but I have avoided actually looking at any of that shit.
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Twitheads are asses. There is no "right way" to mourn. Jerks.