I Am Accomplished!

[dodger_sister]

I HAVE CAUGHT UP ON THE INTERNET!! Or, well, the parts of the internet I actually care about.

I’ve been so less active since I initially got sick with the bronchitis, last fall. My post count has been way down. I am always a month behind on my Flist. I very rarely post fic. I very rarely write fic. My comments kept stacking up. And my Tumblr folder got up over 600. I just didn’t have it in me to keep up with anything.

But my energy levels have finally started to come back! They are still low - 3 or so hours a day - but they are stable, not this drastic up and down thing they were doing. And that has been very helpful in planning what I am going to get through each day. Hell, this week I caught up on the internet and put away my clothes, straightened up my room and dealt with all my bills. I am slowly starting to post more. I am finally caught up on my Flist and my inbox. I have a story to go up sometime this weekend. And I have written 6,300 words since the end of May! Also, my Tumblr folder is down to 400.

I feel so accomplished and like a real person again. And the writing thing has been glorious. For the last few years I have had ‘weekly’ writing goals, in an effort to keep the juices flowing because my biggest issue is just making myself sit down and get started. Forcing myself to write at least a little bit each week has really helped me conquer that. And in the past two years I have missed maybe 3 or 4 weeks of my goal. But this year I just couldn’t keep at it. I was going for 1k a week, not too strenuous, but I had one week where I was so sick from the bronchitis and I told myself, “Skip a week. Let it go. Take of care of yourself.” And 1 week turned into 2, turned into 3, and then the end of the month rolled around and I was all, “Oops. Well, if I can’t meet the weekly goal of 1k, maybe I can meet a monthly goal of 4k.” So I did. And then the next month, same thing, waited until the end of the month and had to push out all the words at once. I wrote at the end of March and then suddenly, somehow, it was the end of May and I was like, “I haven’t written this month, let me pull up my writing folder...holy shit, I didn’t write at all in April!” Idek where April went. It’d been almost 8 weeks. No wonder I felt so out of sorts.

So I sat down on May 31 and started a birthday fic for my sister - (a Hobbit AU!) - and then I just kept going and I actually finished it - (in time for her birthday!) - and then wrote 600 words of Avengers fic for The Nephew. I’m back on the weekly word goals - (haven’t met this week’s yet though, eep) - and ready to start posting fic again and feeling so much more like myself. I don’t think I am ever going to get my energy levels back to anywhere near where I was before, but I’ll take stability over quantity any day.

Now I just have to get around to tackling the dreaded email inbox! I go forth with bravery.

Comments

[vikingprincess]

Babe, I am SO GLAD that your energy levels are higher, and that they've stabilized. YAY!

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Thanks, babe! Omg, having my energy levels even slightly back has been so wonderful. It's helped my anxiety immensely too, to be able to plan ahead for the next day without the 'not knowing how my health would be the next day' that I was suffering from all winter. Even though I don't feel great, I feel better.

[shirebound]

Wooooo hoooo!!

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Getting my health back after such a rough winter has been amazing, thank you!

[ceitfianna]

*hugs you* Bronchitis is evil, I had it in New Zealand my first year and that's when I learned I was allergic to penicillin. I was getting a rash as I was trying to recover, that sucked but it sucks everything from you. I'm so glad that you're feeling better and I hear you on writing. For me, I have bursts due to prompts and other things but mainly my writings on hold, but job stuff seems to be bubbling. Good stuff is going to happen.

Oh and if you want to share long emails and thoughts on X-Men things, I'd love it as Days of Future Past was good but not as good as it could have been to me. Great ideas but the execution at points felt rushed and saved by wonderful actors. Oh and last night I dreamed of acting with James McAvoy and Jude Law in Wellington, New Zealand. I miss you, you're too far away.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Bronchitis is the worst and omg, you getting a rash on top of it had to be the very worst. I am just hoping we don't have such a hash winter next time around so I can stay healthy. The writing thing is so hard because when we feel low or stressed, we need it even more as a release valve, but that's when we don't have the energy or focus to do any actual writing! I just hadn't felt like myself at all until I started writing again.

I def want to share long emails about DOFP! I am very curious as to what didn't feel like it fit to you. I'll try to hit you up tomoorow!

I miss you too! Why are you so far way - it's so nice here right now and the sun is shining and I have the whole week free from PT and I'm just chillin' in the living room and you should be here chillin' too!

oops, posted too soon, hard to watch baseball and type at the same time!

[ceitfianna]

Yeah, it was awful as I had tiny hives on my cheek and the bottom of one foot.

Oh yes, I wish I could call the words when I wanted them but every once in a while, I'll find them. Sometimes all it takes is the right prompt or something and they'll be there.

My main issue with it was that it felt a lot like a fix-it fic but I would have rather seen more of the falling apart. I would have loved if there had been more seen of their lives between the two movies. As the set up especially in the '70s felt a bit rushed, good ideas but without the same oomph as it could have had.

Today the weather here is awful, humid and hot and my period just started so all I want to do is not move. I'd love to be chilling there with you.

[matchboximpala.livejournal.com]

You (and your family) have had some seriously bad luck this year and I am really hoping it gets better for you. *HUGS*

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Yummmm, who is that in your icon? He is pretty. Is it Merlin?

Me and the fam have had a rough year. I am actually trying to get in for a few counseling sessions to learn some anxiety coping techniques because if we have another run like we had earlier this year, I am going to need them.

Things have definitely started to look better, at least for me healh-wise. My Mom is still sick and the case for her dog hasn't moved forward and my insurance is still all fucked up, but I am physically doing better and the weather is glorious and I'll take that as a start! Thanks, babe!

[matchboximpala.livejournal.com]

Yes, that is Colin Morgan. I made an icon from one of his press shots from Quirke (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quirke_(TV_series)). Love his face.

I'm sorry about everything else, but I am so glad to hear you are feeling better.

[elfscribe5.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about the bronchitis and yeah getting sick like that really takes the stuffing out of one, for a long time. Great that your energy is rebounding and that you're writing. Days ago I had a great burst myself and wrote over 2000 words. I paid for that yesterday by getting none out. lol. Cheers.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about the bronchitis and yeah getting sick like that really takes the stuffing out of one, for a long time.

It was a rough run of things. With the winter being as harsh as it was, I just couldn't shake it. And then it takes forever to get your stamina back up, you know.

Great that your energy is rebounding and that you're writing.

Thanks, darling! I feel so much better now that I can get my words out where they belong.

Days ago I had a great burst myself and wrote over 2000 words. I paid for that yesterday by getting none out. lol. Cheers.

lol It always feels great to get such a big burst like that, doesn't it? Even if you run the risk of drying out right after. ;)

[denig37]

This getting caught up thing, I should do that too.

I have 95 (so far) notifications/messages/comments in my inbox (I guess about a quarter are from you so prepare for a spam of replies from me...sometimes...in the near future...or something...*headdesk*), some of them are over year old.

I should reply to them. I really should.

I have a bunch of e-mails from the time I was in Germany too (THAT WAS TWO YEARS AGO!!!) O.o


I fail at life.

Anyway, happy to hear that you're doing better! <3
BTW how is the puppy? Still throwing up or did it settle?

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

This getting caught up thing, I should do that too.

It's been 8 months since I could say I was 'caught up' on things and that literally just means my Flist and my lj inbox. I don't even want to look at my secondary email account (it's been a year, I think)

I have 95 (so far) notifications/messages/comments in my inbox (I guess about a quarter are from you so prepare for a spam of replies from me...sometimes...in the near future...or something...*headdesk*), some of them are over year old.

OMG. Dude. I vote you just let them go. Or say like anything over 3 months old, you should just delete. Just put up a post saying, "Hey, I am ridiculously far behind on things that no human could ever get caught up. So I'm deleting everything over three months old. If you didn't get a reply to something, I apologize and I appreciate you sending it in the first place, I really do. But I'm starting fresh. Right now. Ready? Go!"

I probably won't even remember half the comments you are replying too, lol.

I have a bunch of e-mails from the time I was in Germany too (THAT WAS TWO YEARS AGO!!!) O.o

DUDE. 2 years? Emails are a totally different matter though - you at least have to read them! Ugh, I don't want to even open my email. It's been a week since I made this post and I haven't even touched the stack yet.

But I am feeling better, thank you! And the pup is doing really well! He has some nervous issues, especially during thunderstorms and fireworks, which unfortunately in my neighborhood, we have one or the other every night. The kids around here set off fireworks every night that it isn't thunderstorming, so he's having a tough summer - but his health has been AMAZING. He made such a great recovery, I can't even believe it. His digestion issues seem to have all worked out. He is urinating sometimes in the house though, like he can't hold it in and just has to go all of a sudden real quick. At home he has a doggy door where he can go in and out by himself, but any time Mom has him at someone's house (ours or my aunt's mostly) she has to stay on making sure he goes out like every hour so he doesn't go in the house. The doctor thinks it is stress related. Thanks for asking, babe! My mom gets so happy when I say I had another friend asking after Winston. :)