It's Like Poetry. - "Stay".

[dodger_sister]

So, I wrote this as a piece of fanfiction. Not recently, but once in my life. And I was going to post it under the fandom's name and everything, but then I reread it. And I wondered, who would each of you think of when you read this? Because it never uses names, a variety of fandoms could fit this piece. And it is literally non-pairing specific. And as I reread it, I could think of several fandoms/pairings that it could work for. So I just wondered, What Pairing Do You All Think Of When You Read This?

I'm just curious. I will, of course, tell anyone who asks exactly which fandom I originally wrote it for. And, at some point, repost it with the proper header and all that.

But for right now, it's for poetry month. Of which there is still like an hour left. I was actually going to post a couple of pieces this month, but then I didn't, mostly because I am lazy and didn't get around to it. And even though this was more a piece of fanfic, it still kind of reads as poetry.

We'll just call this an experiment.



Stay

You are watching me.

I can see you watching me.

You think I am asleep, but I am not.

I peer at you from behind mostly-closed eyelids.

I see the way you look at me.

You do this every night.

Every night we spend on this road together.

Every night I wrap up in my blankets to fend off the cold.

Every night, whether or not it is your watch, still you watch me.

Why do you look at me like that?

Why do you keep watch over me so?

Is it for the same reason that I continue to fight off sleep myself?

Are you afraid that I will disappear?

I am afraid that you might.

I am afraid that if I close my eyes, even for a second, that you will be gone when at last I open them again.

There is a glint in your eyes now.

I have seen it before.

It makes my breath catch in my chest, when you look at me like that.

Did you hear my breathing hitch?

Is that why you look at me with your brow creased now?

You look sad.

Why are you sad?

There it is again, the glint in your eyes.

I shiver.

You creep closer to me.

I close my eyes for fear of giving myself away.

You are next to me now.

I can hear your breath so close.

You are warm next to me.

I feel you lay another blanket across me.

Your blanket.

But that you would lie beneath it with me.

I feel your finger trace my jaw-line.

I cannot help it; I turn my face until my lips touch your outstretched palm.

Now I hear your breath catch.

I do not open my eyes.

I feel your lips on my temple.

So soft and warm, yet I shiver.

"Stay," I whisper.

You make no reply, but you do not move away.

You wrap an arm around me, rubbing my back in slow circles.

I feel sleep calling me.

I cannot fight any longer.

I think I will sleep now, if you will stay.

Fini

Yes, this was still when I ended things with the word fini.

In other news - I shouldn't have eaten that ice cream. :(

Comments

[vikingprincess]

I think you probably wrote it for Dean watching Sam. But it also makes me think of how things might have been for Wolverine and Rogue in the first X-men movie, had they not been attacked by Sabretooth and rescued by Cyclops and Storm....

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I shall tell you now...I wrote this way back in my Lord of the Rings days. A long time ago, it seems anyway. When I reread it now, I actually thought how it fits so well with the way Castiel watches Dean sleep. And then I thought it really works well for Dean watching Sam too (like you said). With all of the SPN peeps on my Flist, I was curious as to what they would think.

But it also makes me think of how things might have been for Wolverine and Rogue in the first X-men movie, had they not been attacked by Sabretooth and rescued by Cyclops and Storm....

This response has made me so happy. :)

Now, of course, I want a fic about Logan and Rogue having to stay on the road after he picks her up. Oh, Rogue, you fierce wayward orphan child and your wild wolf-man.

[vikingprincess]

So does that make it originally Sam watching Frodo? You know, I really enjoyed the LoTR movies, but I never ever wrote fanfic for them, probably because I started out with Tolkien when I was wee small, and the movies were sort of like fanfic to me!

Have you tried out the lj community wolverinerogue? There are many lovely stories there....

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I actually didn't really have any one thing in mind when I wrote it, but later on I always kind of pictured Aragorn watching Frodo - (odd since I was never a huge F/A shipper - I read a little but never wrote any). I have since come to the conclusion that it is simply because poetry always makes me immediately think of Viggo.

Though I seem to recall most people back when said they were going with Sam/Frodo here.

I have a whole long story about why I didn't read the books until right before the movies came out - (okay, it's not that long - my mom let me watch those horrible cartoon movies of The Hobbit and LotR when I was SEVEN. I had horrible reoccuring nightmares. And then when I tried to read The Hobbit a few years later, the nightmares came back. But then years later when the movies were coming out, my sister said she would buy me a DVD player if I would read the books, so I did). I also had gotten my first computer like two months before the first movie came out, while I was reading the books, while I was discovering both fanfic and slash through the TV show ER - (I swear, I was just looking for a George Clooney wallpaper for my desktop!). The three things all converging at once - books/movies/discovery of fanfic - and well, I was off and running.

Oh, YAY, fic community!! Want to hear a random story about my dad? I was watching the first X-Men movie with my dad and he was enjoying it, but didn't seem overly excited. Then we get to the end and she is dead in Logan's arms and Logan is crying and my dad starts yelling at the TV, "Kiss her! Kiss her!" and I said, "Dad, she's like 15 and kind of his daughter here," and my dad says, "It'll bring her back to life!" and I was all, "Can't he just touch her then instead?" and my dad says, "Oh, um...whatever, KISS HER!"

True story. ;)

[vikingprincess]

I can totally see how the Bakshi version of LoTR could give someone nightmares - but I guess I was just old enough for the Rankin Bass ones that they didn't mess with me. Maybe eleven or twelve.

That's an awesome random story!

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

It was Gollum in the cave and then the Black Riders that scared me so much in the cartoons. When we went to see the new movies, my sister held my hand when the Black Riders first came on the screen. I should have been embarrassed being that I was like 22 at the time, but then I realized that my sister was the one who shared a room with me when I was having those horrible nightmares, so she probably remembered me crawling into bed with her. Plus, I'm sure she didn't want me to freak and demand we leave the theater (which I have never actually done but whatever).

heehee My dad can be a riot watching a movie, he gets really into it. When I watched the movie with my mom she just kept wanting to know if there was any origin comics on Magneto. She was fascinated.

[vikingprincess]

I think it's awesome that your sister wanted to help you get through the Black Riders - they were pretty darned terrifying in the newer movies, and I was in my thirties then! :)

Magneto is an interesting character and if they don't mess with his origins, tragic as well. Of course, sympathy for him kind of went by the wayside for me when Mystique (movie version) threw herself in front of the Cure dart for him, and he just... walked away. (Then again, the way they handled a lot of things in X3 bothered me.)

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I was very upset at Magneto for the way he tossed Mystique aside like that - but it did fit his character. I mean, he talks a good game about family, but he really does feel that they are a superior race and has no tolerance for beings beneath him. It made me upset when watching it though.

The best part about that scene was the look on John's face when Magneto walked away and left Mystique there.

Lots of things bothered me about X3 as well - I try to watch it for the explosions and not let myself think about it too hard. Mostly my big complaint is really that they should have done a Phoenix movie that was seperate from Magneto's movie. X3 should have just been Mutants vs Mutants in the fight about The Cure. Phoenix deserved her own movie.

Also - I really want to buy one of these for The Nephew. Xaviers School tee (http://www.redbubble.com/products/configure/7105497-kids-clothes)

[vikingprincess]

I'm not a big fan of movie!Pyro (or any Pyro, to be honest, though the one in X-Men, Evolution, was pretty funny), but that was a truly excellent moment.

I also agree that they tried to shoehorn the Phoenix storyline in there - but I didn't mind too much that Famke Janssen was absolutely done playing her, since I hated movie!Jean. Actually, 616 comics Jean also deserved/deserves/will deserve if she's raised again a hearty slap or two to bring her out of the Maru Sueniverse that she's always inhabited. :P

Nephew, heck; *I* want one of those tees!

[vikingprincess]

err. that should have read MarY Sueniverse

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I had a Pyro thing when I was a kid - partially due to the comics my brother had and maybe from some appearances in the early 90s cartoon.

I loved movie!Pyro - but I still have that thing for the bad-boy and well, fire. I think I really fell for him during X2 in that scene where he is in Bobby's home and he is looking at all the pictures of Bobby's family and my heart kind of broke for him.

I sadly only got to see like 6 episodes of Evolution. I can't remember why now - but I really liked it. I was going through my Nightcrawler phase at the time and I loved him in that.

Yeah, I was never a big fan of Jean in any comics I read or anything, anyways. I think you are right, it is a lot of Mary Sue-ness. I was always a Storm girl myself.

[vikingprincess]

I did enjoy Storm, but my favorite (as if my wriing didn't show it) was always Rogue - and for bad boys, Gambit. :)

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I think Storm may have been the first woman I remember having a crush on. She was cartoon, but whatever. ;)

Oh yes, Gambit has always been my #1 X-Men boyfriend - from both the comics and the cartoon. I always wanted to be a thief, I totally blame Gambit. The accent, the coat, - oh, I had the fingerless gloves as a kid, made them myself.

I actually love Rogue too - from the comic series my brother had. Have to see if I can find which one that was.

[vikingprincess]

LOL You must have cut your X-men teeth on the cartoon that ran from 1993-1998, then, if that was when you got your Storm!crush. That was a pretty awesome cartoon, true to the 616 comics, and with a few great voices going on.

I (of course) especially loved the back and forth between Rogue and Gambit, and how she didn't at all mind flirting and using sexuality on missions, but got all uncomfy when it was with someone where it might have become real.

Anyway, enough X-men ramblyness. :) The piece you wrote was awesome and I loved it.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I think I got my Storm crush from the role-playing game my big bro had - she had a mohawk in that. I first read X-Men through a Wolverine series, that was what my brother collected - (I started in Spiderman) - but yeah, I got a good taste from the cartoon. (can't wait to introduce The Nephew through those cartoons!) I started getting my own X-Men comics then.

I think I was jealous of Rogue in the cartoons though - Gambit was MY man, lol

Yes, you are correct, we could still be having this conversation about the X-Men in like 2013. Alright. ;)

[ceitfianna]

Wow, that is utterly beautiful. I can make that work for so many of the pairs I love but its just poetry.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Wow, that is utterly beautiful.

Thank you! I was so nervous to post it - I can never tell if my poetry is any good or not. And I wasn't even sure if it was poetry in the first place, so you saying so makes me happy. You're a librarian, you know these things, after all.

[denig37]

First I thought it was Cas watching Dean, but then it was more of Sam watching Dean :-D
Nice! :-D

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

First I thought it was Cas watching Dean, but then it was more of Sam watching Dean

I actually wrote it for the Lord of the Rings fandom, years ago (now you know!). But I reread it and thought how it fit so well into SPN too. People seemed to either go with Sam/Dean or Dean/Cas - you went with both. ;) Though you are the only one who said it was Sam watching Dean and not the other way around, but as soon as you said that, I thought, "Sure, after Dean comes back Hell, very cool."

Thank you, darling!

PS: I edited it to clarify, because I said "after he comes back from Hell," and then I realized that they have both been to Hell, omg. So now I clarified.

[flawed-x-design.livejournal.com]

This was so lovely.
I think it is Castiel watching Dean. I honestly didn't even consider Sam, but I think I'll have to reread it now.

[flawed-x-design.livejournal.com]

crap, now I'm re-thinking my answer!

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Calm down! It's not a test! lol. ;)

[flawed-x-design.livejournal.com]

How dare you, this is very serious!

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much. I was nervous posting it, honestly.

Actually, I wrote it for The Lord of the Rings, way back when. I always pictured Frodo as the one sleeping and Aragorn watching him, which is weird because even though I sometimes read that pairing, I never once wrote Frodo/Aragorn in fic. I left it open-ended so the fandom could put in their own pairing though.

But yeah, when I reread before I posted here, my mind immediately went to the way Cas watches Dean sleep and then immediately after, it went to Dean watching Sam.

[flawed-x-design.livejournal.com]

You shouldn't have been nervous, it's great :)

It really is applicable for a lot of pairings/characters. To be honest, it could be Sam watching Dean sleep too, which I really like.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

To be honest, it could be Sam watching Dean sleep too, which I really like.

Yeah, I like that too - especially after Dean comes back from Hell, Sam never wanting to take his eyes off Dean in case he disappears. And Dean, with his nightmares, would probably be unwilling to fall asleep without knowing Sam was right there. It's kind of sweet, except for the part where Dean was in Hell. ;)

[wolfrider89.livejournal.com]

Whichever pairing this was written for, I loved it! I, of course, pictured Dean/Cas, because that is just how my brain works. ;)

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Thank you, baby!

I, of course, pictured Dean/Cas, because that is just how my brain works. ;)

Well, that IS how my your brain works. And Castiel does like to watch Dean sleep. ;)

Actually it was an open-ended pairing setup for the Lord of the Rings, back in my first online fandom. I always pictured Frodo/Aragorn myself, oddly since I never wrote them or even shipped them that hard, but it felt like that to me. I was curious back then what LotR pairings people would choose. Maybe it is Viggo and his poetry that made me picture Aragorn?

[wolfrider89.livejournal.com]

Cool! I would never slash them, (well, I shouldn't say never. I should never say never about anything. *cough* Wincest *cough*) but Aragon + poetry = win any day. :D Is it Aragon watching Frodo sleep?

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

I really was never hugely into Frodo/Aragorn but I always gave ever pairing a try - (much like I do now in SPN) - and there was some good F/A stuff out there. I just never really had the urge to write that pairing myself. Which is why I am always shocked that even after all these years, my mind still says F/A about this poem.

Some of Viggo's dirty hippie traits did bleed over into Aragorn, but I found that a good thing. lol Damn dirty hippies. ;)

Yes, def Aragorn watching Frodo sleep.

[wolfrider89.livejournal.com]

I have trouble slashing Frodo with anyone. Which is weird, since I have no problem at all with Merry/Pippin, so I can't blame the hobbit thing. Oh well, I'm sure that if I read some fic with it, I wouldn't have any trouble with it at all. :)

Hahaha, love that dorty hippie. :D

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Merry/Pippin was my LotR OTP of Love!!

[ranua.livejournal.com]

It really could be any one. I could picture any of my OTP's in the situation. Steve and Danny on stake-out, Sam and G undercover with only each other to lean on, Xander and Spike after the destruction of Sunnydale, Heero and Duo anytime on Earth, Dean and Sam, Dean and Cass. It's very lovely and I vote it's poetry not prose.

[dodger-sister.livejournal.com]

Steve and Danny on stake-out, Sam and G undercover with only each other to lean on, Xander and Spike after the destruction of Sunnydale, Heero and Duo anytime on Earth, Dean and Sam, Dean and Cass.

Omg, now I want Steve/Danny on a stakeout fic - Sam and G in a long intense undercover op fic - Xander and Spike hiking across the US together after the end of the series fic - omgomgomg, Want. Um, yes, idk who Heero and Duo are. I actually posted it without the pairing on here to see how many people said Dean/Cas or Sam/Dean. I actually got someone who said Logan/Rogue, which I also immediately wanted. heehee

Actually it was for Lord of the Rings, way back when. And it could honestly work for any pairing in that fandom. I, for some reason, always pictured Frodo sleeping/Aragorn watching, even though I wasn't a huge F/A shipper - maybe the intensity of it made me think F/A.

It's very lovely and I vote it's poetry not prose.

Thank you! I wrote it kind of as an experiment so I wasn't really sure what to label it as. My writing needs no label? Giles needs no pants?

[ranua.livejournal.com]

idk who Heero and Duo are they're two of the characters from Mobile Suit Gundam Wing. One of my all time favorite anime.

it was for Lord of the Rings, way back when. . . I, for some reason, always pictured Frodo sleeping/Aragorn watching Oh, I can totally see that. Tho, I do like how it doesn't have a pairing and you can put your own characters into it.

Giles needs no pants true statement.