So, way back when, The Cousin was all, "Why does John yell at Dean when he is mad at Sam? I don't like him." And I went on a campaign to change her mind - (obvs, what with her underage-ness, I couldn't use my usual strategy of visual aides and graphic descriptions). But I managed to bring her around and one day she was all, "John this and John that," and I was like, "Ha! I got you!" and then ran off to write her some angst fic that shows the first thing that made me love John Winchester - how much he truly loved Mary.
So, here you go - Reflections from John while sitting outside the house in Lawrence at the end of the first season episode, "Home". Rated PG, obvs themes of death, angst and 436 words.
( Header Info )( John Winchester sat outside the house in Lawrence, Kansas he had once called Home. )